Have You Lost Your Cool Yet?

Have you lost your cool yet? that was the message my old friend sent me yesterday. I laughed it off but then I thought about it and reflected on the past months. I wasn’t your average kid loving individual. I was contented with just buying them gifts and staying unbothered by their tantrums and cries for attention but it is surprising how much could change with having mine.

My twenty seven weeks old daughter is becoming more aware of her environment. She is no longer that quiet baby that sits still in her bouncer or rocker. She is trying to stand and crawl so it is been hard taking my eyes off her. She cries whenever she trips and probably has one of her hands or legs trapped under her whenever I am not looking. She figures it out later though. Her resilience is enviable, I see how she gets up after each fall and begins trying again like the fall never happened. Watching her gets me emotional,  I can’t believe how much my baby has grown, but it is also some sort of physical strain for me as I feel like I always have to guide and protect her.

My nipples are sore and my eyes hurt from lack of adequate sleep. I can’t just hop up and pack my bag to go spend time at someplace like I used to. I consider so many things these days: The environment, space and every other thing that just didn’t use to matter. She is growing up so fast and so in a hurry too.

 Anytime I want to get mad, she looks at me with those perfect eyes, holding my finger in her very soft palms with smiles playing round the corner of her mouth. Seeing her happy makes it all so worth it but I can’t help myself feeling a tinge of frustration or running out of patience atimes.

I’ll do anything to make this jewel of mine happy. I wonder about when she might think I hate her because I put my foot down for her to learn some life lessons.

Have I lost my cool yet? Well, I do sometimes but It is never  serious.

If I feel this way about my daughter, have you ever wondered how God feels about us?

                                If you then being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more your father in Heaven give good gifts to those who ask him. Matt 7:11

 He nurtures us from when we are in the womb till we become adults (sometimes).

                                     Before you were formed in the womb I knew you. Jer 1:5

Guarding and guiding us through life.  we are like babies in His hands, we would feel discomfort atimes but it doesn’t mean we are not on his mind, it is all just part of a growth process, learning to sit, walk, teething and so on are all parts of his ultimate design.

Unlike us, He is never fatigued; His arms are ever strong and ready to comfort us.

                            He will not allow your foot to slip; He who watches over you never sleeps or slumbers. Psalms 121:4

God always wants what is good for us. He is not a man that He would have selfish thoughts. His ears are always at our table. He doesn’t feel like creating us has gotten in the way of His ambition.

Motherhood teaches one a lot about sacrifice and I can’t wrap my head around sacrificing one’s only child for the world to be saved. That just does it for me.

How about you?

Are you at a very low place today? Do you wonder why you are going through what you are going through?

God is always there with you, like a child growing up, there are lessons we need to learn. Through all the discomforting stages, teething pains and all we ever go through, He would always be there to guide us through.

And yes he might lose His cool but He will never desert us just like He never did the Israelites in the bible. Nothing can separate us from God’s love.

                    And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death        nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.  No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39.

Rejoice in the knowledge of God’s unwavering Love for you.

Stay blessed.